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At the Wall

May 6, 2008

They have gathered before this wall,

It was a nondescript wall.

In the art wing.

 

Half a world away

They are gathered by a wall

 

Now there is a piece of paper.

And an old coffee can

Into which a box of fresh, new markers was placed.

 

There was God’s dwelling

And now it is all rubble except for this.

 

Squares and trapezoids of print

In the unlikely, bright colors

Have been blossoming on the page all day.

 

Much is revieled by what it is you’d like to call this place:

Kotel;The  Wailing Wall; Waqf;  or Abu  Madiyans

 

At the top,

In purple

It says “This is what we remember.”

 

If they do not rend their garments they sa:

That which they have been told to say:

 

They have gathered before this wall.

In groups of twos and threes and fours.

They are crying, some of them.

 

“Our Holy Temple which was our glory,

 in which our forefathers praised You was burned…

 

They are holding

Each other and they are rubbing backs

And crying, some of them.

 

and all of our delights

 were destroyed.”

 

They are holding

Hands and leaning into each other

And looking up at the paper.

 

Some of them are crying and some of them with

Prayers, rolled up small and tight on scraps of paper

 

They seem to know

An instinct, perhaps, a hidden signal.

When it is time.

 

They place them in the cracks

Of what remains of the wall

 

Solemnly, ritualistically,

They approach the paper.

And they add whatever it is they had to add.

 

They walk away leaving there prayers behind them

Is there a symbolism here?

 

It is song lyrics for some of them.

It is a love letter for some of them.

It is a long, rambling attempt at constructing meaning.

 

It is a long

Rambling attempt at constructing meaning.

 

Plattitude and sincerity

Rub elbows like the jock and the goth here

Rub elbows like the messages from those  who did and did not know her.

 

In my dreams I approached the wall.  I wrote:

 “Our Holy Temple, which was our glory,

was burned and all our delights were destroyed.

A taste of Heaven

April 24, 2008

Not me:

at those harps

sporting a stylish halo

walking on cotton ball clouds.

 

Not me beyond conflict,

Receiving everything I want

even before I ask for it:

Not in my heaven.

 

I used to only know what it wasn’t.

But the gift

of the last

few weeks

has been a taste of what it will be.

 

I was nearly wrung dry:

I hope you will permit me to torture that metaphor

and clarify:

the towel

of my soul

was just

barely

damp.

 

In moments of peace

there was solace

in the fact

that I’d done some good.

 

But I needed peace

to find that peace,

a thorny dilemna.

And then there was the ocean

not waiting for me

except that it was

waiting for me.

 

What deep hidden part of us

does the white noise-rhythm of the waves

awaken? Why does the salt

carried on the breeze

remind me who I am?

 

And in the middle

of the rest and the peace

we held a war council

to recover one of our own:

 

But even this brings a deeper peace

than the surface battles we fight:

I am reminded of who is by my side.

 

And the capping moment

that next time

A legacy reawakened

through its own force of will?

 

How could you know

that my own grandmother

stored up her change

for me way back then?

 

A handful of metal and lint and miscelania…

through the bank’s alchemy metamorphed…

and then changed again:

 

Whatever I wanted,

stuff simultaneously

worthless and priceless…

And so my heart tells me it will be like this

In the Great Then:

 

Rest and battle, trials and the continuance of all the good things…

But there is something more!

I will not play a harp but I will hear it

maybe we will hear it

 

maybe this is the Great Difference:

Our acts, all of them, will be the

voices, the strings, the harmony.

It turns out there is a truth hiding in that simple-scary vision of Heaven

 

We will hear it in some new way:

Earthly music will turn out to be only a castrated echo

of this thing our actions themselves will proclaim:

 

Holy is the Lamb Holy is the Lamb Holy is the Lamb. 

 

 

A small, easy thing

April 13, 2008

It is no small, easy thing…
this small, easy thing:

To eat unhurredly,
to take small, unassuming bites
to finish them and swallow and pause

just pause.

Wisdom is slow.
Truth speaks in this quiet voice.

There is greatness
in just this:
cool slices of turkey
nestled in a buttery croissant

Knowing that last bite
left me only a little thirsty:
a half-mouthfull of water
from a cup unneding of ice cubes
is enough.

Untitled communion poem

April 13, 2008

The grotesqueries are the point.

It is a cracker, yes,
but it is also His Flesh
being ground to grit between my molars.

Not the Jews (or for the Jews)
Not the Romans (or for the Romans)
but me
for me

And yes,
it is simply lemon tea (instead of grape juice, we’re out)
in a chipped mug but
it’s also his blood
in my mouth
and down my esophagous

that full warm tang
surprises me
shocks me
sickens me
nourishes me

I am a canibal-vampire.
And it seems that this is how it must be.
And so I offer my thanks to God
for it.

A prayer

April 13, 2008

Father,
here I kneel.
at this small table with this empty cup.

If you fill it
I will drink it–
whatever it is that You put in there.

If you do not fill it
then I will still bring it to my lips
and I will breathe the cool air instead.

a variation in the key of 1 Corinthians 13

April 12, 2008

1 Corinthians 13The very depths of me hum

with the greatness of this realization:

This realization that though I might speak great truth

truths which unlock the secrets of this world

truths which unlock the secrets of the next world

I might speak ecstatic wisdom.

but words

without love

are only noise.

And I might appear to be a prophet:

holy man healer medicine man mystic.

There might be a depth to me

deeper even than the deepest wisdom

Healings, trances and supernatural abilities.

but actions,

abilities,

without love

are irrelevant.

If I am self-sacrificing:

if I give every piece of me

to build up every piece of you

if I give until I am a sad shell…

if I wait until I am almost nothing

if I throw the sad remnants of what I once had

of what I once was

into the very flames of sacrifice…

if I sacrifice even my love

if I give even my love

until I have none left

then I have truly given too much.

Where patience manifests itself

love is underneath

where kindness emerges on the outside

love hovers beneath

where envy has been transcended

love has conquered

where boasting has been ended

love has begun

where pride falls

love rises

where cruelties fade away

love comes into focus

where selfishness is defeated

love victors.

where rule books and score books are thrown away

love springs up.

Love does not flourish among evil,

love abides in truth.

love preserves the eternal

love trusts even when it is hard

love believes in the best of us

love maintains the best of us.

Love is perfect.

it is not like our words, any words

whether those words speak of this world or the next.

Because some day

we will run out of words

because some day

our tounges will no longer wag.

Love is perfect.

It is deeper than understanding.

understanding resides within us.

and is a passenger with us.

and it passes with us.

The best we can ever hope for is to speak partial truths.

The best we can ever hope for is to know half the truth.

But we can participate,

right here,

and right now

in something which is full and complete.

Someday we will be greater than we are.

Someday we will see that we are not so different now

than the child we once were.

We know that when we were toddlers

we could not speak complete sentences

or understand the fullness of adult thought

Someday we will look at who we are now

and where we are now.

and we will see that we are still toddling around

still so uncomplete.

We put our childishness away before,

we will put away this new childishness again.

In that new place

in that new time

we will step into the fullness

of what we were meant to be.

The best of us

is what will be left of us.

We will be faith

hope

and love.

But the greatest of these

the greatest of what we will be

is love.